Written while volunteering in South America, I reflect on how I became the person I was then. I am a mad and my stories are from my adventures. I have spent years of my life searching for hot spring and outrageous characters. There is thing but change in this life and I embrace it. I admit I take things too far and make some strange life choices, but I am really happy at this point in my life. The lion in me is sleeping for the time being. This is the story of how I have fought to get here. At the end of the day our fears determine our limits. I find the wall and push it till it moves. I wasn't always so brave. But things happen that either make you or break you. I am still going strong. If you like traveling, mountain sports, surfing, are curious about mind altering substances and nature, you will enjoy my story. Sprinkled with journal entries and poetry from three decades. While the changes seem subtle, the events are ridiculous. This is a raw human story, every part of it is n-fiction, even if it seems unreal.