I'm hoping my life story will give insight to people who live and suffer from mental illness and help them receive a clearer form of understanding of their similar diseases in an effort for them to better cope with their everyday lives armed with new kwledge to avoid certain emotional situations when the going gets rough. The importance of staying on prescribed medications cant be overstated. Saying you're better when you're t seems to be the trap that gets many people into trouble. Responsibly going to necessary appointments with therapists to talk about lingering issues, such as social anxieties, dark emotions and explosive anger disorders, as well as deep life sapping depression, is clearly imperative. This story sets in stone all the hard lessons I had to learn and harshly tried to live through; a condition most parents would t wish on their kids. I went through many stages to finally gain an official diagsis. In this autobiography I revisit the details of my life from 7 years of age to my present age of 42 years. I'm confident my long history with psychological issues will shed abundant light on the ones who have lost hope.