As the good little girl in an unhappy family who hid her darker troubles, Deb Abramson felt like she was living with ather girl, a shadowy being who would neither leave r make herself kwn. Crushed beneath the burden of her parents' rigid expectations yet driven to satisfy their needs, Abramson becomes bulimic, then severely depressed and suicidal, retreating more and more from the troubling outside world to the seeming haven of home, to a cycle of comfort from and competition with her depressed mother, to the frightening but alluring intimacy of her father's affections. Her struggle to extricate herself from the impermeable, immutable kt of her family forms the heart of her dazzling book. In this psychological portrait of a family bound together by the uneasy permutations of love, Abramson relies t on sensationalist narrative but on a collection of the many small moments that glitter along the bumpy path of her life. Now and then she provides a broader, connecting perspective by stepping out of her story to reflect on the meaning of it all from the standpoint of the insightful, healed person she has managed - against all odds - to become. Rich in metaphor and intimate detail, this is a lyrical story about moving from isolation toward connection, about seeing childhood t as a crippling refuge but as a point of departure, about discovering that it is possible to have your shadows as well as your light.
Deb Abramson received her bachelor's degree from Yale University in 1991 and her MFA in creative nonfiction from Goucher College in 2000. Her essays have appeared in the New York Times Magazine, the Sun, River Teeth, Under the Sun, and other publications. A Pushcart Prize nominee, she lives in Vermont. Shadow Girl is her first book.
University of Iowa Press
Date of Publication
Sightline Books: The Iowa Series in Literary Nonfiction