As a child I enjoyed going to church. I loved worshiping God. Once I began playing the trombone as a sixth grader I enjoyed it even more because of the music. By the time I had finished middle school I had joined the church worship team and was up bright and early every Sunday morning to make it to church on time to lead worship as part of the worship team band. Going to church was one of the happier moments of my childhood because school was so hard for me socially. Church did t involve a lot of socializing and I was able to avoid the awkward social scenarios by playing trombone. It is hard to talk when you have a mouth piece in your face and by the time worship finished and I put my instrument away I was able to sneak in the back doors of the sanctuary and find a seat in the back. Socializing did t occur much during the sermons in the church and that was a fantastic thing. Church was God's time and I socialized with him. God did t care if I was autistic or if I had any form of mental illness. God loved me for who I was. I wish I was able to see myself as God does like I do w a long time ago. By the time college came along I was beginning to have a lot of issues socially and started to become anxious and depressed about a lot of things in life. I desperately wanted to make some friends. I began to wonder if I would ever get a girlfriend and I felt that I was so far behind my peers socially that I had a lot of catching up to do so that I could be like them. My first attempt going to college at Indiana University was unsuccessful. I had so much anxiety about that campus there in Bloomington. I barely made it through my first week of classes but I was bound and determined to try somehow to overcome my anxiety and go to class for the second week. I knew deep down inside me that this was going to be hard for me and by the second day of the second week I was already ready to come home. I knew I could t stay at Indiana University. I decided to come back home and go to Indiana Wesleyan University. Indiana Wesleyan (IWU) had a decent music program. It was t near the magnitude of the music program at Indiana University or even Ball State University down in Muncie, Indiana, however, it was a great program for a school of its size with the enrollment they had. This book is a journey of how I lost my faith in God by attending a Christian University. The way I was treated at Indiana Wesleyan University has had a long lasting impact on my life. This is a story about how I went from believing in God to thinking God hated me. The story ends with a positive happy ending as I am able to reclaim my seat in God's house.
Travis is 29 years old. He is dually diagnosed with Autism and Psychosis. Travis has been through many things in dealing with Autism. He openly shares his experiences to help others like him who may be struggling with some of the same issues. Travis likes to read and write. He also enjoys playing and watching basketball and football. You can email Travis by emailing firstname.lastname@example.org To read more of Travis' books checkout his website www.travisbreeding.com . You can also find them all on Amazon.