A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle (2008)
I LIKE THE NEW WAY OF THINKING, WHICH I HAVE BEEN DOING FOR SOME TIME. ITS REFRESHING TO HAVE SUPPORT AND AND ACKNOWLEDGMENT THAT "ALL IS ONE" AND TRUTH IS WHAT ITS ABOUT, THAT THERE REALLY IS NO GOOD/BAD ONLY TRUTH WHEN EVERYTHING ELSE IS CLEARED AWAY. I BOUGHT THE BOOK FOR ITS KNOWLEDGE, TO REMIND ME WHAT I FORGOT, AND TO GET MORE UNDERSTANDING FOR THE TIME I AM IN THE MID-WEST, LEARNING VERY DIFFICULT GROWTH SPURTS. I GREW UP IN IOWA BUT SPENT MY ADULT YEARS UP TO 53 IN CALIFORNIA . UPON MY RETURN HERE I HAD NO IDEA HOW HARD IT WOULD REALLY BE. KINDA LIKE THE ALCOHOLIC WHO GOES BACK HOME, ALL THAT WAS NOT SETTLED OR ACKNOWLEDGED COMES FLYING UP LIKE DEMONS FROM THE PAST. THESE VOICES OF TERROR AS A CHILD RETURN AND START CUTTING ME DOWN WITH WORDS LIKE LIGHTNING TO THE HEART. THE PAIN, CONFUSION AND SELF-HATRED IS THERE JUST AS REAL AS IT WAS THEN. ONLY NOW I GET FLASH BACKS AS HOW IT GOT STARTED AND HOW ALL THE CHILDREN IN ME GREW INTO HAVE THERE OWN PERSONALITIES AND WHAT PURPOSE THEY SERVE TO PROTECT OR FEEL THE EMOTION PAIN, OR PSYCHOLOGICAL CONFUSION OF WHAT IS REAL. I CONTINUE TO DEAL WITH ALL THIS TO THIS DAY ALWAYS LOOKING FOR ANSWERS, WAYS TO HEAL AND GUIDANCE TO HELP MYSELF LOVE ME THE BEST I CAN, SO I CAN BE THE BEST PERSON I CAN BE, AND IN THIS WAY I FEEL I HELP THE UNIVERSE TO HEAL. ITS LIKE MICHEAL JACKSON'S SONG "THE MAN IN THE MIRROR". ITS VERY HARD TO HOLD MYSELF ESTEEM ABOVE WATER HERE, AS, I FIND MYSELF STANDING ALONE, BEING ACCUSED OF THINGS I AM NOT ABOUT, AND BEING TREATED VERY DISRESPECTFULLY, WITH MY DIGNITY AND INTEGRITY BEING ATTACKED DAILY. I HAVE VERY LITTLE FAMILY SUPPORT, EXCEPT BY MOM, DOES HER BEST , SHE IS 90 AND INCREDIBLE. THEN I HAVE 3 SISTERS WHOM ARE STEP FAMILY BUT CLOSER THAN MY OWN AND MORE LIKE WHAT A FAMILY IS, AND MY FRIEND SHARON. THANK THE HEAVENS FOR MY FAR AWAY FRIENDS WHOM ARE MY FAMILY FOR MANY YEARS NOW. SO I BOUGHT THE BOOK FOR ALL THESE REASONS, AND AM LOOKING FOR NEW STRENGTH DAILY AS THERE HAS BEEN TIMES I REALLY FEEL LIKE TAKING MY JOURNEY, BUT DON'T AS I DO NOT WANT TO REPEAT THIS LIFE, AND I REALLY WANT TO GET IT....AND WALK IN THE LIGHT SEEING ALL AS LESSONS, LEADING TO THE NEXT LESSON , AND FEELING LIKE I DID WHEN I LIVED IN CA. WITH SUPPORT TO BE WHO I TRULY AM........ME.Read full review
