Being the first lady for a pastor can be a thrilling experience for a woman, especially if her husband is a megachurch pastor or a TV evangelist. However, behind the scenes of these public displays of faith, secrets can be tearing the first lady's marriage and sanity apart. The new Christian vel by Barbara McKinney, When is the First Lady Ever First, shines a light on the hidden struggles of pastors' wives, from spousal abuse to insecurity to infidelity in marriage. In the vel, narrator Mary Eckles is a psychologist dealing with the sudden suicide of her friend Jane, a first lady of a megachurch pastor. As a last request, Jane asks Mary to provide outreach to some of Jane's fellow first ladies that are dealing with emotional dilemmas of their own. Mary discovers more of God's purpose for her as she connects with these ladies on a professional/personal basis.